Single is still my relationship status…..
When I started this blog, I wanted to write about the humor I found in my day-to-day life of being a single female who happens to live in a small Alaskan town. I wanted to write about the humor I found in the conversations I had with my Aunt. How she would tell me all about her online dating stories, and I would tell her about some of mine. My Aunt Jen lives in a larger town, so she has more single stories to tell than I do 😉 We talk about life, being single, enjoying the now and also the plain humor of dating in this day in age. Being single is hard work 😉
It was the only vision that I saw for my blog. Simply write about being single. Maybe write about finding myself while healing from my past. In the last month or so my blog has started to take the travel bug turn. Now, there is nothing wrong with that. It will be a huge part of my life, and of course I will continue to write on that topic. But let’s get back to the basics here, if only for just a blog post or two. Single is still the current relationship status on my private Facebook page. Single is still how I am filing my taxes each year. I will be single for the Holidays, single for the new year, single for Valentine’s day and single when I leave Alaska.
I am not trying to be all sad, I am only stating the facts. There was a point in time when I looked at the word “single” as if it was a disease. I thought that I should be embarrassed and ashamed of it. It has taken me 29 years to realize it takes a sense of strength to remain single. Lonely nights have a way of making you do things. Things you normally wouldn’t do. I know we have all been there. And you know what? It is ok. It is okay to be a human who wants to feel a connection with another soul. If only for a few hours.
I write about being single (that is my niche) and I write about Alaska, (I do live there.) I write about my past and the damage it caused. I write about my future plans of travel and also some of the silly things that happen to me in my daily life.
One thing I haven’t written down are my hopes that one day, I will find love for myself.
To me this blog isn’t about that. I am not desperate to find love like I once was. I haven’t written about my hopes and dreams for that part of my life because I am honestly afraid it won’t happen for me. Not for a lack of deserving, but more for it’s not written in the stars for me. Maybe a relationship here and there, yes. But true love? Real love? The love people search their whole lives hoping to find? No. Not for me.
My friends tell me I won’t die an old hag, I tell them they do not know that for sure! That they are just saying it because they are my friends. So let’s get one thing very clear, shall we? Yes, I want to find love with a partner. However, not your everyday, boring love. I want true, honest, real love. Mature love. The kind that does not posses the other, but rather stands still in the storms.
I want a love that is comfortable in silence. A partner to wander with, a partner to find home with. Yes, I am very much single. Yes there are days it just freaking sucks. I am after all, only human. Though I will tell you this much, I am going to live this life of mine and enjoy the freedom that my relationship status gives me. Until somebody worthy enters my life to change it, I am alone under the northern lights.
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